To Jessie
**IF YOU AREN’T JESSIE, GO AWAY.**
**THIS IS FOR JESSIE’S EYES ONLY.**
About our earlier conversation-
Let me make one thing clear. I never said that I liked studying. I like learning, I like discovering things, I like gaining information. But studying, what I’ve been so fervently ranting about, isn’t something I do because I find it fun. I’m forcing myself to study, I forcing myself to remember sentences from a book, because I know that I if I continue to do this, then I will get a good education from an excellent school, which will bring me towards a better future. If I reach the better future that I so desperately want, then I can play all I want there, after I’ve secured the foundation I built. Meaning, why do you waste time now doing things that you could do later, without any worry? I’m pretty sure you don’t think this way, but I’m only doing what I think is right. I’m trying to help you towards a better tomorrow. Yes, studying isn’t what we all like, but who cares if it’s only for our own good? I’m forcing myself to do this because I want to help myself. My own future. Your future, the world you will live in, all depends on what you do here and now. What do you want? Do you want an average job, earning the average wages of an average American? Even to get an average job, you need an education. Do you want an excellent, high-paying job? Then think about what you need to do to get an excellent job. Yes, I know that I sound extremely mean right now. Yes, I know I’m ticking you off, annoying you, probably driving you insane because I keep prodding you to study, or get off the computer, or go read, or do homework, but think about why I’m doing that. I don’t want you to have a miserable future. You don’t even have to do much right now. Just take little steps, one by one, inch by inch. A good start would be setting times for free play on computer. Maybe reduce it by thirty minutes every two weeks? Taking a break from the computer will help your eyes and keep them from deteriorating. I don’t know; do what you think suits you. Or don’t do anything at all. But really, can you think about what I just wrote? Take a break from those games and manga and just think about it. If you do that, I’ll stop bothering you. I won’t even ask you to go jogging with me or even go outside. I’ll let you hate me all you want without me blocking you. Just please, think about it!
I know that I was an anime addict, just like you. I played countless games with you, and for that, you may call me a poser or a hypocrite because I have been saying. But you’ve heard the reason why I quit anime. I said it was a waste of time. For me, it was. I don’t know about you. If you really think that spending several hours a day watching anime and reading manga will help you, then sure, keep going on. But I quit doing that because I felt that I could be using time in a better way. No matter how long you think life is, it really isn’t. Time seems so endless for us, but in reality, it is never enough. We can’t do everything that we want to do, so shouldn’t we do the things that we can do in this short life we have here on Earth?
You probably think I’m a completely spoiled and self-centered brat for saying these things to you. Oh well.
=_=;
And once again, learning and studying are different. Way different.
Sorry for being a jerk. Thanks for reading this.
Cheers. 
PS – If you truly, really, absolutely, positively believe that gaming, reading manga, watching anime, doing all these things is what you really want to do, then I won’t stop you. After all, who am I to judge you?
Yay~ I purchased a pack of 12 Prismacolor Pencils~
